3rd chapter – 19th part

Handicapped Buddies  

“葡公英之会” is a gathering for the handicapped. They brought us to a western restaurant named “巴洛克” today, and there was a classical piano. After I told Miss 山口 to play the piano next time, she laughed.
After that, we went to 纯子’s house, although she can’t hear anything, but she can use sign language and communicate with us very well. Her expression is always so cute.
I’ve learnt a few sign languages, but I still want to carry on improving, so we can be best friends.
And I feel that her mum and my mum they sound alike.

(Teachings from my buddies)
1. As a handicapped, if we always don’t move forward, we will never change and improve ourselves.
2. Instead of pursuing things that are already lost, we might as well treasure the things we have now.
3. If we always moan how clever we are used to be, it will only increase our depression.

3rd chapter – 18th part

Wheelchair  

“Aya, I bought you a wheelchair”
“Ah!”
Mum gently told me “Although the school has handrails along the hallway, but when turning, it could be pretty dangerous. While turning, you need to change from standing to squatting, then back to standing position again, sometimes there may be problems if u are impatient, not only that , u might fall during the process. If this problem continues, you won’t be able to go out alone. But with the wheelchair, even if you have not enough strength on your wrist, you just need to push the button gently and you can travel up the slope easily. I heard the wheelchair can travel around 5km/hour which is almost similar to walking speed. Not only it’s not dangerous, the operations are easy too which is very ideal for you to use. But you mustn’t be spoilt or too dependent to the wheelchair, must always use your own strength to walk, and not to be too lazy. Can you promise to learn well on the wheelchair operations?”
“Can I really travel outside all by myself finally?” I can’t help at the top of my world feeling my world has expanded one more round.
I want to travel all by myself.
No longer do I need to write down the name of the book I want and ask someone to buy it for me. It seems like a dream to me to see the bookstore boss passing the book I want directly to me.
Great! Before I proceed to

Special
School, I will read the operation manual and try practice outside.
The company sent the wheelchair to my house. I watched them setup the wheelchair, inserting the two handles, on the button and the wheelchair is ready to go.
“Aya, try the wheelchair. You just have to grab the handle and push back and forth, you can go anywhere with it and the operations are very easy.”
I sat on it; slightly push my hand forward and the wheelchair moves forward. The wheelchair produces a soft sound while moving. I tried turning and pushed myself to practice for a while. Not for a short while, my usual tantrum started again, my tears can’t help falling.
“What happened?”
“It’s been a long time since I can move around with freedom. I am so happy.” Although replying that, but my heart felt complicated, words could not describe how I feel right now. I want to practice hard and sooner or later I will be able to travel to the bookshop with no problems.
I looked out the window and it was raining.
I work hard cleaning the kitchen and toilets and felt like a new strength has been injected to my body.
Although I have stop studying (Luckily I still felt like a student)
Talking about the wheelchair, (Note: Japanese translated as “Car Chair”) In Japanese, Sister can be known as chair and father as car, combining would be a wheelchair. ??????? Pardon my understanding for this paragraph.
During my first year in school, my younger sister saw the wheelchair in a hospital; and was so tempted to sit on it and play. Mum said, “Wheelchair is not for you to play. They are for people who are inconvenient to walk.”
Till now, I still remember these words.
I can’t help thinking (Some people from a camp in
Germany I think) that we are alike because our feelings are starting to get numb as time goes by.

3rd chapter – 17th part

Shopping  

Mum was making a phone call, later she shouted downstairs.” Everyone let’s bring Aya to YUNI shopping center. The staffs said they provide wheelchairs over there, Aya can go with us together.”
As it was spring holidays, everyone is around and free to go together. Around 15 minutes later, we reached YUNI”
I hung the usual small bag I always carry around my neck, while sister pushed me to the ladies fashion department. To me, these products are something that I will never have the chance to wear again. I saw one beautiful dress and I really wanted to try it. But as I always fall, I can only wear long pants to protect my knee. Wearing skirt is like a dream to me already. Today, I finally had the courage and tell my request to buy the dress.
After mum bought for me, she said,” One is enough, Anyway the weather is getting hotter soon. I was so happy. The dress was printed with whites flowers and the four area edges were surrounded with laces. Wearing it makes feel alive and afresh again! I guess everyone will praise me hot cute I look? Even if it’s just once, I really hop everyone will say that to me.
As we were preparing for my new hostel life, we bought an entire bag of undergarments, socks and towels. I suddenly felt empty, after a few more days, I have to stay in Special School and separate with my family.
Although I have made up my mind not to cry, but thinking of that, how am I supposed not to cry? I must be strong, no matter what happens, I must maintain a positive attitude, in the future then I will a great person.

3rd chapter – 16th part

Truth  

The small case of Dr Yamamoto
She wore slightly thin glasses, shorthaired, always wearing white. No matter earrings, rings or other accessories, always gives people feeling refresh and clean.
She is my doctor in charge, even if she changed to another university hospital, she never failed to keep in contact with me, because of this I also choose to change hospital as well.
She thinks very quickly, no matter what things she does she is fast, and she can also diagnose things very accurately. She even drove me using her car and travel to other hospital for checkups, and it s really very unbelievable strength.
“ Which school are you from?” I asked.
“Minghe” (Sorry don’t know the Japanese name for this school) She simply replied.
That is a very good school; only the tops will be able to go in even I had hard that school name before. I heard she rose to university straight, but she wasn’t proud at all, always so caring. That’s why Aya always like her so much. But Aya with her is also required not to show any weak side of her sickness.Visiting the hospital and clinic visit is almost 1and a half year, but my sickness didn’t seems to improve and got worse day by day, even I could it myself.
Probably my small brain cells are slowly dying, my entire body system is slowly down bit-by-bit, even simple movements like raising my leg seems to be difficult. Even turning my body proves to be a difficult task, talking I have to talk word by word now, cant speak loudly, my laughter no longer are big like Haha but became like hehe…Difficulty in swallowing happens frequently, my tongue ability to taste seems to have also lost.
The next time for my hospital visit, I want to ask doctor, how far this sickness is going to go further worse! I hope the doctor would tell me the truth.
Even knowing the truth would be bad, but I still have to face the fact. I decided base on the doctor answer and reflect once more my own future.
(Now my prediction for my future)
1st Year- Dong Gao
2nd Year- Special School
3rd Year- Special School
Later part- Work at home (Take care of the house and do housework)
Even though I know going back Dong Gao is impossible, but I want to make full use 2nd Year’s time, I still need to plan.